Touzoku-Joou

I kind of like died or something I don't know. Been around other places. Haven't felt anything I've done to be worth posting.

Kind of considering just making a new account. Starting fresh. Put up a few things I'm proud of from this one into that, but overall just leaving it be.

In fact I think this sounds like an excellent plan.

I shall make it right now. It shall be a glorious display of shitty WoW sketches and the occasional original character when paying attention to them strikes my fancy.

Yes I still play that stupid game.


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But anyway, throw a watch out to if you still want to keep in touch.

If you're wondering where I've been I've basically been rediscovering the joys of being a ridiculously huge fandom dork in the form of WoW RPing. It's like when I had my shitty anime OCs all over again, except actually encouraged and a whole lot more satisfying. And oddly enough, more socially acceptable, and that says a lot.

My god.

If me 4 years ago met me now, we'd absolutely hate each other.

I'm mostly posting this useless fact to justify my lack of art. I promised I'd stop posting pictures of my Durf Knight and to be quite honest, basically everything I've drawn in the past 4 weeks have been RP sketches of varying quality.

Fascinating.

I lost my phone in my own house while inebriated one night, and just found it... two weeks later. Over 9000 missed calls and voicemails.

6 voicemails from work offering me more hours, and a bunch from my orthodontist wondering when I'm going to call them back about my surgery.

Fuuuuuuck.

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On the brighter side I'm getting way more confident with my drawings. Not a normal feeling for me, very... liberating? It makes me want to try new things other than 3/4 bust shots of the same 3 characters.

I'm also having way too much fun with coloring my lineart waythefuck random colors that have nothing to do with the colors in the image itself. I hope it's just a phase.

Sorry I'm journaling so much. I just had to share my phone woes with the internet because I know the internet cares so much.

So my whole life I've thought that being afraid of something means you're phobic of it. I never really understood phobias, really. I thought, "Oh, being on cliffs and tall buildings makes me uneasy. I must be afraid of heights!" or "Wasps scare me, I must be phobic of wasps!"

Well, no, that's just basic survival instinct. Wasps sting and falling tends to kill people. Being afraid of these things is natural and is not a phobia. I didn't understand this until I came home the other day and experienced true fear for the first time in my life.

I am fucking terrified of termites.

Terrified.

I came home to find hundreds of the winged fuckers swarming my kitchen. We left the window open that day and they found their way in (they live in the stairs of my apartment complex, this I know). I had a full-on panic attack, complete with nausea, cold sweat, and complete system shutdown. I waited outside for an hour for my boyfriend to come home where he promptly rid the kitchen of them by assaulting them with ammonia. I felt like such a girl, freaking out over bugs. I love bugs. I've had pet tarantulas and vinegaroons, both of which are far creepier than termites. And yet, now, from that day on, I lock up at the sight of a termite. God dammit, I hate them. Haaaate.

cough hack wheeze

I have teh cold. I noticed last night when I woke up because I nearly choked to death on my own phlegm. Just thought I'd share.

I'm also back into my drawing slump. I was doing so good for a while, so I guess I just need to remember whatever it was that was driving me to draw again in the first place.

Speaking of drive to draw, how the hell do you get noticed around dA anymore? The only time I can get a good critique is when I draw anime fanart, which is like the opposite of progression.